december 28, 2010

well its really the 29th but the blog has to do with stuff up to the 28th...it makes sense in my head. and Tumblr is down so i gotta post on here first...well I know sum of my classmates have heard about Moose. She...ugghh...she cant make someone irritated in seconds. She threatened to cut off tyler's phone over some nonsense that had nothing to do with her. She's a liar.....and the problem is i care. Ugh...feelings get the best of me. im such a softee. lol. well today was great. spent it with tyler (no we're not back together, we're just friends). tomorrow im spending it with the bestfriend and we might go ice skating. .....not sure yet. how was everyone's christmas and what does everyone have planned for new years?

So..

How is everyone's break going? Only 5 more days until Christmas!!! YAY!! I still gotta wrap my mommy's presents. I'll get to it eventually. lol. Well I have no phone. *tear* long story. I seen Essence at Starbucks...well yeah she does work there but didnt expect to see her at work lol. Anyway. Hope everyone is having a good start off to break!

Personal Dec 13.

I like the color purple. Not the book or play its an actual thought. Anyway. These past two weeks have been CRAZY! Teacher piling on work and then having to worry about finals and all that jazz. But it is soon to be over with. *tear*. And that is a real tear. It'll will be weird. Not havin Essence to talk to in the back corner. eatin and all that. Even the lectures for notes were really good. I just know I gotta get on pre-assignment for next year. But then again knowing most of us we will wait until the last minute. I might be it depends what I do this summer. I need to stack my money so when i get my new car i got gas money and i gotta cell phone bill to pay and i wouldnt mind some side money. =)

Acadeic Dec 13

mkay. The semester is coming to an end. *tear* uhh NOT! I wont miss none of my classes but Mr.Parker's. other than that im ready to move on and get out lol. I was able to make up my 3 zeros which brought me to a flat 90. I was too happy. Now Hopefully I'll have 3 A's and 1 B. Of course that B would be in Spanish. I would just love to somehow get all A's this semester.

Personal Dec 7

Today, well this week, so far, has been interesting. Umm weird was my mom wanted to go to Big Lots to buy some stuff and what not. Its not that i didnt want to go it was just that I wasnt having a good day and going there was not going to make it any better. The thing is that i dont want to meet moose. Omg i have so much running through my head and the bad thing is that I havent been keeping up with my Blogs. I need to get on it. The end of the semester is here and this is not the time to slack off. This is that worst times to. Im learning that in my fourth block, because i got 3 zeros i only got a 83 and thats not cool considering last 9wks i had a 94. Ugh! I want an A for the semester. And just people in general are irratating me. Esp people in my 2ns and 3rd block. Its crazy like people do the craziest things and it just doesnt make sense or i guess they think its normal. Then again there is no such thing as normal. But hey to each is own thats what my mom always says.

Academic Dec. 4 2010

That shakespeare test was easy. The best part about having the note cards was that we cuold write the essay questions on it. It was kinda slow on some people who did not do the note card at all. And then some people didnt take good notes so they had to borrow people's notes which really irratated me because i needed mine to do MY WORK. not my fault you aint took good notes. Remember Grades then sleep. Thats what i do. I think if i can go to bed at 3 and 4 in the morning and still stay awake in 95% of my classes then anyone can. I dont even drink coffee.

Personal 12.3.2010

So theres only 28 days left of this year. WOOHOO!!! im so ready for 2011.  Hopefully it will be 10X better than 2010. Only 15 more months until Class Of 2012 graduates!!! Are yall ready? I sure am. I'm ready to get our class rings on the 8th! So if you havent make sure you pay it off. I still owe like $285 and some change. lol. I ready for break too. Then its a fresh start both ways: a new year & new semester. Therefore most of us will have new teachers. I know i need some teachers that care (besides Mr.Parker ;-) ) Everything right now, kinda, is going the way I want it to. Well skool wise and general life wise. Relationship wise ehh i could be doing better, but at the same time Im gettin ready ain no need for a distraction. Right? I feel the way. (and for those that said no then sorry i just dont think like that) Anyway..what is everyone asking for for christmas? I got a BB (which everyone already knows cause i use it in class) a dual view camera, and whatever else my mom buys me. I only asked for two things though. Yeah. So im pretty much set for Christmas.
I have such a busy weekend! OMG. Today is the Hinesville Christmas Tree Lighting. Then tomorrow (saturday Dec 4) Im hosting a Mary Kay party @ Century 21 from 12-2pm. Its for the AKA sorority pageant. And all the proceeds go towards scholarships, so if you know anyone that would like to donate or purchase Mary Kay then let me know or you can come! @ CENTURY 21 SATURDAY DECEMBER 4 FROM 12-2PM. Then that night I have my mom's christmas party to go to at work. Then sunday is a chill day to get ready for exams monday and tuesday. Then the week after that is finals and then its break! I'm waiting im counting the days lol. But thats just me i probably can figure that there are some people in the world that dont even care that we have off, but then again that may be a reason that we are what #48 in the nation? oh well. They should just check some of the teachers that teach us, because for most of us it is not our fault that we do well. I know i sleep  and skip class but when its time to do work i get it done. I get my grades before anything!

Song of the Day: Trina - Single Again (original and remix ft plies) 

So...

Would anyone like to share their thoughts on cheating? Is it ever wrong? Is it ever right? What is considered cheating? How do you control the situation? Like yeah. I need some thoughts on that.

Break was great! But now its back to the daily grind. School, home, homework and all over again. The same routine. Same teachers, same work that isnt taught you know the whole bit. NY was great. Shopping out my mind lol. We started at 12am and came home at 7am..crazyy huh?. Then we stopeed on the way home at the outlets and shopped some more. Then came home today. Planned to do homework all day, but tyler decided to stop by..(oh joy) that was 20min. Then back to the laptop where homework took/taking place. I've been sitting here since 11am.  

Everyone is changing their status on FB. Like its so crazyy i even had a dream about someone chaging their status. Every other person is either "In A Relationship" or "Engaged" where I should have been but we all know how that went. Anywho...
I just want to be able to legitimately change mine to "In A Realtionship" so I can have the same old smile i used to have. It was great. Nothing in the world could bother me. Anyway. That's pretty much it. I'd rather talk to people in school that post it on here even though thats the purpose of having this. Ugh just so much on my mind, but no words to express it. I like to draw even though I can't.

Today

Today has just not been my day. I can't understand why. We got the writing portion of our graduation test back, which is the only test that we have taken so far. I got a 208. You need a 200 to pass. So basically I barely passed. Yeah I know I still passed either way, but just doing what I have to do to get by is not good enough for me. I like to exceed. The topic was weird though. They wanted us to talk about a time that we would like to travel back to. I cant really remember what I wrote about, but whatever it was, it was clearly not the right topic to pick from.
Ugh. I just have given up on school this semester. It feels that the teachers dont care anymore. They just want us to pass the EOCT and final and that's it. So they only teach the minimun until two weeks before the EOCT and three weeks before the Final. (not including holidays). That overwhelms me. I have to memorize a shakespearean sonnet, a website to make (which is still have to pick a topic for), work on the packet for US History. And in that class they dont teach from the book so nobody really knows where the information can be found. Then the powerpoints that she finally told us about to help us barely have anything that have to do with the packet. It's just like hints and not answers. I don't know. Maybe I'm just being a little lazyy. But I really stay up and do homework. Last night was different. Doing homework all afternoon deserves a break. I took a 2 hour break all together. Well maybe more because I did actually sit down and watch Baby Boy on BET. I LOVE that movie. I think that I need to at least go to bed by 2 that way I can stay awake in Spanish lol. Today was the first time that I slept in Spanish in three weeks. lol. That's not good if I can say that. Maybe that's why I have a 77. Yeah I need to step it up BIG TIME. I can't have these kind of grades. It just wont work for me.

Personal (Firewall)

Okay!
So does anyone wanna let me know wassup with the new Firewall. It doesnt let you do anything!! Thank goodness i already downloaded Google talk to my jumpdrive because it works now. I guess so far that is the only thing that i like about it. And the other good thing is that they did not block Tumblr. When im in 4th block I stay on tumblr. But i thought this would be a good topic-conversation-thing. I know most people dont care but you cant even do certain searches on google anymore. What is that about?? THEY BLOCKED FUNBRAN.COM! that is a educational website why would you block something like that? Yeah then again we are in liberty county. Ugh I cant even google homework if i need help with it. OMG this really blows and sucks butt. We are all sitting here in 4th block lookin like lost puppies because we dont know what to do now that this new firewall wont let us do anything. Well eventually someone will find away around it. Promise. Because the last one was just like it. And within three weeks people found away around it. I hope they dont thinkg that it will make us do our work. Nope. We'll now spend our time trying to find something to do. Now it will take us longer to do online work at school because A LOT of the sites are blocked. Ugh why block google and funbrain but leave Yahoo open??? This place does not make no sense to me.

My Weekend and Then Some

My weekend was good. The weather was nice. We went shopping and all. I saw someone who I care about dearly and we spent some time together. It was like the old days. (Does anyone remember Fred from Snelson?? Yeah Him) So I found what I want for christmas. It was at Victoria Secret (no it wasnt nothing like "that") and this other store I forgot the name. But the mall we went to had a Gucci Store!!! It was nice I got a pair of sandals from them. But then we came back to....Hinesville sorry i meant Lamezville. =)

Soo...I hate when people text me and they gon do something stupid. Example: He texts me but then stops texting when his boo comes over. Why?? We're just friends I thought? Why is it such a problem. Blah...Am I suppose to care right now?? Well sorry I dont. That is just how the cookie crumbles right now. Im starting not to care about anything by school cuz thats the only thing that will get me anywhere in life. Not all these little boys, triflin females, money, looks, NOTHING..its all about the Education.

SN: You can obviously see what kind of mood I'll be in all week.

A Midsummer Night's Dream Assignment

Okay. Well I did this kind of backwards. I think that Shakespeare, since it was romance/comedy/tragedy (somewhat) all in one, i think he wanted to apologize if the reader didnt like the play. Whether it was because of the set-up or plot or anyone was offended. Quince explains in the beginning that he is sorry if anyone is hurt or offended by the play. While he makes this little speech he said that he knows he and the other actors will be killed. Puck said that for those of them that did not like the play to just pretend it was a dream. Both of these speeches tie into A Midsummer Night's Dream. They both apologize to everyone if they dont like the play. Quince apologizes before and Puck after. Just in case they wanted to hear the apology again...i guess. Theseus, however, tells them that they need not apologize to the people if they dont like the play, i guess he figures its a personal problem if they dont like it.

Personal Nov. 9, 2010

Really? So you want me to jump off a cliff then ask me to bring you food at work? Really?! Well me being the new nice changed person im not going to hold a grudge against you because you want to act dumb. Whatever. I have more important things to do. You need to #GetItTogether. lol. You put stuff on twitter and FB. Yeah you look STUPID! lmao. It's okay. We all know.
Funny. You have a "boo" but yet you still call me your ex-fiance and put me before her. (yes its true for those that didnt know and actually care) You hate me yet you know you can call me if you ever needed anything. How does that work? Then we planned to go Christmas shopping when I come back. Spend two evenings together. Soo...yeah. Feedback???? (negative&positive anything!!!)

Well this nice well deserved 4-day weekend is coming up. I'm so excited!!! I'm going to Miami. The nice warm sun and it wont even be that cold. But then come back to school and then New York. I will be busy the next couple weekends. I love traveling and to get away from Hinesville is well deserved for anyone. lol. Hinesville has so much "ugh" that it is necessary that we get away every now and then. Then christmas is coming. YAY!! wait...wrong holiday...Thanksgiving is in a week or so. Im going to the Macys Thanksgiving Day Parade. I went last year and it was awesome. This year should be extra better. 

Personal Nov.3.2010

Several things have been on my mind.
1. Most people in my classes are just acting like school isnt anything. Like their just going to graduate without doing aanything and get by. I think it shouldnt just be about applying and getting by, you should excel in what you do regardless of what it is
2. As most of my friends know, my ex had told me to jump off a cliff and that he hates me. Well he couldnt possibly hate me that much seeing that he is my friend now and borrows my stuff and acts like we're bestfriends. Lol. It's okay. Since no one else will put up with his BS someone should be a great person and do it. So that will be me. So we're going christmas shopping when I come back from Thanksgiving break. That ought to be something.
3. DRAMA on FACEBOOK is not cool. Like really? Why not even worth discussing.

I dont really have anything good to say like i did last week. (SHOUTOUT TO ASHLEIGH T. =] ) But at the same time i have so much to say. Just dont know what words to use.

Academic Nov.3.2010

We're reading A Midsummer Night's Dream in class. It's pretty good. I read it the first time, but didnt really understand it. That's the good thing about reading it as a class. You understand it better. It's pretty funny how two people are trying to get at the same girl, but she only wants one so she deicdes to take matters into her own hand.

***SUBJECT CHANGE***
I've started on my research for my website thing. Has anyone else? I picked food. My three pages will be Breakfast Lunch Dinner. However, my only problem is that I don't really know how to use the Evue Envu user thingy. I ususally just post it as a whole new website by itself,  (example: http://www.chrissy.com/ ) but i dont know where to start using the prpgram. Does anyone else?

Personal October 26, 2010

This week is a little better. Well not really.

Food for thought: There are some hurtful and mean people in the world. People are going to use you, work you, and hurt you. However, you cannot let them break you. If you let someone break you, you give them complete control over you and nobody wants that for themselves. Be all you can be and then some. Don’t let anyone tell you that you can’t do something. That should be all the motivation you need to do anything. Forgive&Forget. Learn from your past and mistakes. Don’t hold on to something that is holding you back. Be happy and love with all you have.

It was a post that I had on Facebook and I just added a few extra thoughts. I think that my friends are tired of hearing stuff like that I think. Well I don’t know because people stay clicking that “like” button on Facebook.

Personal October 22, 2010

This week has been crazy. My ex called me and said that he hopes I die so he can forget about me because he still likes me and can't move on. He told me to jump off a cliff. Aint that some stuff? Well its okay. He called me talking about his will only take less than 15 minutes that was at 1030pm. Tell me why then we was on the phone until 230am? Yea 15 minutes my foot. Lol. But then he was like we’ll talk tomorrow. You go from hating me and wanting me to die to “I’ll talk to you tomorrow” and he literally meant it. To me it is time to just forget about him and his childish games and move on. Cause this stuff is getting old real quick. This is like the 4^th time we’re doing this. I don’t see why when I finally get over him then he calls and says something to draw me back.

Academic October 20, 2010

The work in school is coming on me too fast. My classes are overlapping. Well since I was suspended Monday I am a day behind. The Spanish quiz that I failed horribly and then US history and all this stuff. Omg. It's a lot. 
Then we have to work on these questions for a Midsummer Night's Dream. Its not that hard, but its alot. You just have to read. 
I just need to get on my work and not let anything distract me. And lunch should have been better. =)

Academic Week Oct 19-22

So I was doing some research on the college I want to go to. I want to go to University of Miami. That is not my only pick, but that is my number one pick. I did the research on what they are looking for, but is not required. To do the program that I want to do I have to have a 3.7 GPA, 1400 on SAT, 32 on ACT, and be in the top 5% of my graduating class. Well I'm almost there. I just need to pull straight A's almost. I just need to get my grades up and get ready for SAT and ACT. That is where I want to go and that is what I am going to aim for. If not I have other options. Auburn, NYU, Columbia, Florida State, St. Johns, and if I have to I'll go to a school in Georgia. That would probably be UGA or something.

Personal Week October 18- 22

I felt that this past weekend and the rest of this week will be nothing but drama. I got suspended last friday for something I had nothing to do with then the other girl that got suspended with me had the nerve to call my house phone saying that she wants to fight me. Well good for you I'm not about to stand by and entertain little kid stuff. #RealTalk. That is something for twitter. So I spent Monday working on school work that I knew I was going to miss while I was gone Monday, however, the good thing is that my teachers were nice enough to move all work to Monday that way I won't have to take a 0. But then we had a quiz in Spanish and I just didn't know it. So I know I made at least a 5 on it. I know sad right? Well I just didn't understand it. Then I'm having boy drama. Well not really. It's just he is being super childish and posting stuff about me on Twitter and Facebook. I mean it's like Facebook is like the place for drama now days. Why? Why bring drama to a social networking site? Oh yea I forgot. That's how people in Hinesville are. Even though he says he is far from childish, that is the most childish thing that someone his age could do. #AintThatAShame. I type like that because later when I go home I go back and post it on Twitter. But when I get my phone back from the school on Friday I'll be able to just update from my phone; again. So it's whatever really. I didn't get in much trouble, but enough that I know not to do it again. But at the same time this school is a bunch of B.S. anyway. <3 

Academic

I'm reading one of the tales from Canterbury Tales. I really like this one. So far it is my favorite one.
The knight was asked to find out what most women desired most. I'm not saying that this is what women want most. I think that it is something to think about. The knight had a year and a day to come up with the answer or he would be beheaded. His answer was:

A woman wants the self-same sovereignty. over her husband as over her lover.

- Page 286; line 18-19.

In this case the word "sovereignty" means "to realize the full force of the Knight's answer. (It may help to understand if you have read the introduction)
I understand it as women want to be equal. Their husband is no better than they are. No hierarchy within their relationship, everyone has the same amount of power and will.

***This was written a while back. I just now posted it so I have an academic blog ;)***

Personal Blog Week 10/4 - 10/8

I'm not really sure if I did a personal blog. So I'm going to do one just so I know that I have one. =]
So. Yea..
Yesterday..Today. Okay well let me start with what we're learning in Literature. Rules of Courtly Love. I really don't know what to say. I have so much to say I just don't know which words to use to express it. "It" meaning my thoughts and feelings.
I'm not really sure if I did a personal blog. So I'm going to do one just so I know that I have one. =]
So. Yea..
Yesterday..Today. Okay well let me start with what we're learning in Literature. Rules of Courtly Love. I really don't know what to say. I have so much to say I just don't know which words to use to express it. "It" meaning my thoughts and feelings.It just seems like everything is going so slowly. Tyler is acting weird. He’s mad at me for no reason, but you know what. He’ll come back. I know that sounds real mean, but that’s just the way it is. The Rules of Courtly Love play in our relationship. When I was reading them I smiled, frowned, and made faces because 99% of them, in my opinion, are true. However, at the same time you can’t really base your relationship off of a set of rules.

I think the dragon and the lady are the enemies. I think that the guy on the horse is a knight fighting for something that is in the cave. If you look at the picture you can see that the guy on the horse sent a gold spear through the dragon’s head. Also, you can see that the lady is holding the dragon on a chain leash. It looks like the guy on the horse traveled from far because he is on a mission to save or destroy something; most likely it is something in the cave or something that is something that is past the cave. The lady looks like she is just standing there protecting something, but has no worries of the knight in armor getting to it.

Blog Assignment #2

They call me long hair don't care

And alot of girls give me their evil stare.

I attend LCHS

But that school ain't nothing but a mess

They work us real hard

Trying to raise the bar

I graduate next year

And hopefully I'll have all my peers

I'll be in college that fall

Which means no more late nights at the mall

I plan to succeed

By doing nothing but good deeds

I love wearing name brands

But not many boy bands

Music keeps me calm

And I use a lot of lip balm

I love to go to Miami

And I'm very spoiled by my daddy.

A lot of people wanna fight me

And I only care slightly

They supposedly have one reason

But that reason changes like the seasons.

So now that you know me

We can be homies.

Academic 3 or 4

So, we are doing this project in literature and we had groups. I was in a group of three. There was one girl in my group that didn't put any effort into our project. She didn't even help assemble it! But she sure helped put her name on it!!!!!!! well it doesnt really matter. All I know is im getting my grade. I made sure the doll looked a little put together because we spent so much time on the prologue.
In Spanish we had to make food from our country and present it. I did tres leche, which means three milk in spanish. It is sweet and moist. Yum! I think I got an A. And we also had to bring in an artifact. I brought in a lenga. It's Indian. It's something you would normally wear to a wedding or an event of equivalent, like a jundi. And those are ceremonies where you pray for good things or a good future. Indian people usually have one when they move into a new house. So I think my Spanish class got to learn a little something new from another culture. And I also had to explain the difference between Arabian and Indian because they thought it was all the same and it's not.

Personal

Dyhydrogenmonoxide. I dont think i spelled that right. lol. But that was the answer to the freshman test that i was listening on. Too much of it will kill you and not enough will kill you. I haven't blogged since last week. The 15th to be exact. Alot has happened since then. we got grades. or maybe that was two weeks ago. But anyway. I've had projects due and homework to be done. For once this year. Then  did my research on my Christmas present that I want, which is a Blackberry. The Blackberry from Virgin Mobile to be exact. It's really cheap but I dont know about the service. However, I will keep my other phone maybe until my contract is up. But if I dont like the service I'm going to keep the contract. So yea. I had the option of gettin the iPad, but I looked at those and I noticed that a new generation of them come out almost every 6 months; mostly because they are still fairly new to the game. So I may just wait until I graduate or get to college. And another thing is that in order to have internet service everywhere you go, you have to buy a data plan, which is $30 a month. And I'm not even sure if that is for the unlimited package. But with Virgin Mobile you get unlimited text&data w/ 300 of talk time w/ free nights and weekends. And it runs on sprint's 3G network. Or maybe it was 4G I don't know. I sent an email to my dad about it because he was the one that brought up the ipad thing, but he said just to let him know which one I want. I know I have to pick the best thing because this is going to be a combined Christmas and birthday gift since my birthday is only 1 month and 4days after christmas. And the other thing i was is the TL210 ( i think its that one) its a dual view camera without the touchscreen because they say the ones with the touchscreen messes up easily and we all know I dont do well when things go wrong, which reminds me of another thing, but I'm going to use that thought for my Academic blog.

Personal- Music In The Making

Well, I'm at my friend's house when I wrote this. He should feel special because he inspired me to write this. ;) (Yes I know I'm not in school. But my absence is excused =] )
Well, he's not really a friend. He's my ex and we're just really close. So anyway, on to the story. He likes to write music. He just re-did his computer, bought a mic, and all the equipment that he needed to record. We just looked up some beats to he can "freestyle" to. And I say it like that because he's more of the type to sit down and write rather than think from off the top of his head. He gets more "into" it. It's really cool to watch. You know when you see someone and they're so focused on what they're doing and you don't want to disturb them? It's like that. It's the best thing for me to watch. lol. It's just me and what I like.
We decided on Drake's beat - Best I Ever Had. I got to pick it. He doesn't usually let me pick  things because he thinks I pick "corny" things. That's why we never go see the movies that I want to see because they always end up being lame. Atleast I can admit it. lol. Anyway. Let me get off his computer before he has a cow. <3

You should check us out on Tumblr (And maybe follow us): Chrissy's Tumblr and PoecticDecision's (Tyler) Tumblr

Academic Post - A Book I was reading

I kind of forgot the name of the book. I don't really looks at titles of books when I buy them. I usually just get them because I like the cover. Anyway...

This book that I was reading reminded me of a Romeo and Juliet kind of story. So I took it upon myself to go on google and see if my "theory" was true and...it was. Except the there were some differences. It said that it was a very very modern version of the Shakespearean (sp?) poems. I thought the book was pretty good. However, I think if I would have known it was about Romeo and Juliet I probably would not have read it. I'm not too into the "love" story thing anymore. I don't know why, I just don't like it. They talked about how they wanted to portray Juliet with more “class” because they thought that she originally showed that she was “fast” and she thought that she knew all. I didn’t think that about her when I read the poem. I did think that she was “fast” though and stupid. I mean You’re going to kill yourself over some guy? Yea. I would NEVER do that. I don’t think it’s worth it. Why would I give up my life, that I still have to live, for someone who died. In the book it didn’t say that she “died” and then he killed himself. It said that she committed suicide and then he killed himself. So there was a really big difference right there. There was no mob involved, no gang, nothing. It was pretty good.

So...

I heard that we got our new thingy to recite from Mr.Parker on friday. Yay something i gotta look forward to.
Umm would anyone mind telling me what we did in other classes. I have Romero, Tilghman, Parker, and Jackson. I don't think I'll be there monday either. I'm not totally sure though. If anyone wouldn't mind doing that for me I would really appreciate it.

We Learn Something Everyday

So now, right now I'm downloading the latest version of iTunes. The only reason being is because you can't update your ipod without having the latest version of iTunes. I didn't know that. I only found out because I called Apple Support and asked why my ipod wont update. lol. Well we all learn something new everyday now dont we?

Last Night.

I didn’t sleep all night. I went to sleep at 1:15. Woke up at 2:15..got something to drink. Woke back up at 3:45am…laid in bed. Woke back up at 5:15 and been up ever since. I know exactly what kept me up, but I know it shouldn’t be on my mind. I know it shouldn’t. It’s not supposed to be. But it is and who am I to tell myself not to think about it? Stuff like this I can’t help but think about it. I mean I’m not tired. I feel full of energy. Ugh. I’ll probably be able to focus better than usual because of this, but I don’t like that I’m thinking about it. CAUSE I’M NOT SUPPOSED TO THINK ABOUT IT!!!! I’m just not. But I am. And knowing that I’ve been thinking about it makes me think about it more. Well duh that makes sense. Well I put on radio to hear some music to un-focus. Cause I don’t wanna be focused. I don’t wanna think about it. And I hear Trey Songz - Already Taken. And then Drake - Miss Me.

Personal Blog Post

I am a strong and determined young lady. I don’t sleep around. I’m not about partying and all that. My main focus is school and getting to University of Miami. I have my faults; believe me I do. I do regret some of them. That’s a fact. However, I refuse to let my emotions and feelings get the best of me. You know, the more you care about somebody the more power you give them to hurt you. I did let my guard down with two. One i regret; the other I do not. (most recent) Yes, apparently the male race only wants sex from me. However, I’m not the type of lady to just drop my panties when asked to. Naw F That. I don’t believe in “just having sex” I’m very very careful about the people I choose to associate myself with. Sometimes I make the right decisions; other times I fail. A positive environment with positive people = positive experience, positive outcome. (to no one particular) If you don’t want me in you life, fine. I’m gone. I can’t, just can’t do it anymore. I remember telling someone I don’t have it in me to fight no more. I still dont. I don’t think I ever will. Fighting just causes pain. Physical and emotional. I’m 16. I’ve been cheated on, lied to, led on, prayed upon, anything and everything. I don’t think that’s the kind of love life a 16-year old should have. That’s more like 21, but hey we all gotta learn sometime. I just happen to learn early. And I’ve learned how to overcome and move on. Letting go is the hard part. These are my faults and weaknesses. They always somehow get the best of me. Always. And each time I try to get back up. It may take a few hours, minutes, or days. Other times it takes months. Maybe even years, but at some point I just have to give up.

Blog Assignment #1

Beowulf and Grendel are different in their own book. In Beowulf, Grendel was portrayed as an animal, vicious, soulless murderer. In the story of Grendel he is portrayed as a reasonable, thinking, and soulful creature. Even though Grendel was told years before Beowulf came around it still showed how Grendel meant for him to be seen. He could understand when the humans spoke, but when he tried to speak back it was not their language, which made them think that he was upset and angry; that he was going to eat them. The story of Grendel was told from the antagonist, while Beowulf was told from the protagonist point of view. Beowulf made Grendel out to be flat, evil, a character that the reader would not like. However, in Grendel it was different, the total opposite. Beowulf is considered the character who does not understand. Grendel was more willing to understand the people in both Grendel and Beowulf, leading to the conclusion that Beowulf and his men were “closed minded” In both books they point out the opposite in each other. For example, in Beowulf they make Grendel to be the “bad guy” and in Grendel they make Beowulf out to be the “bad guy”. They were both similar in their intentions: they just wanted the best, while their point of view was different.

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apparently my credit card was FROZEN!!! man im so mad. I just paid for my class ring. But im not the primary cardholder so they wont let me ask questions so. Now i gotta email my dad and ask him to check it because i gotta pay for it. And then on top of that they wanna tell me that i spent $20 already...no i didnt so they needa fix it!!!!

Check It!

Just re-did my blog page to make it super cool. I added gadgets and other things to it to make it more personal. More Me. So. Check it out. Try It Out. And if you need help you can always ask! I'll show you.

Only Me I Think

When i have a question, I tend to raise my hand and announce i have a question and then ask my question. Does anyone else do that?

Finished Homeboys in a matter of hours.

It was a really touching and good book. It made me cry a couple times because the things being said and the situations they were in i could relate to. Most teenagers go through a time in their life where they just want to fit in and be loved. I went through that phase in middle school and freshman year. But then I realized that: everyone isn't gonna be my friend, I can't trust everyone, and somethings you just gotta do on your own. It really made me think and look at how things in my life are right now. Everything just needs to pause for one mintute so i can just breathe and collect myself. Because when i get overwhelmed i shut down. I dont do anything. I just put my head down and block out the rest of the world.

New Book- Homeboyz

So i just finished Live and Learn. And yes. I did learn something from it.

• dont fight over stupid stuff
• you can't trust everybody
• friends before guys (always)
• dont believe everything you hear

but anyway. I started this new book last night called Homeboyz. It kinda shows how "gangters" think. And i put quotation marks because they are wanna be gangsters. It's pretty interesting, but at the same time it's the same stuff that i see in Live and Learn and in the movie Takers. So we will see how this ends.

Lol

Today in class we were reading funny puns. And my teacher said something about goldfish and i yelled out....Goldfish cant have babies. And i wasnt thinking that the females cant have babies...lol. I felt kinda stupid afterwards but at the same time it was funny.

So..

I'm reading this book called Live and Learn, but I'm not learning anything from it. It's starting to look like a pointless read. I mean I can relate to it...a little, but not a lot. And the people in the book aren't really living. They're just doing what they gotta do to make ends meet. and to me that's not living. I like teen books, but I wanna be able to relate to it or learn something from it. But that seems with this book it went out the window.

Ugh!

I could really use a friend right now. Life is just gettin to be a little too much. And I'm tryna get all caught up with my homework. =( and my head is hurtin me real bad. I woke up this morning thinking it was monday...that's off i am