Senior Quote

It seems like I'm the only one that has started using my blog again so far, but I just wanted to share my senior quote with everyone....


"You don't know or appreciate what you have until it's gone"

I wish this year would hurry up!

I just dont get it. The beginning of my senior year has gone all wrong. My schedule was messed up by putting me in a class with of course the one person that is out to ruin my life because I used to like the guy that she liked. So with her drama and everyone talking, it has ruined, destroyed my relationship with my boyfriend. Like we cant even be friends. That's what I get for believing him and trusting him...JUST LIKE HIS DAD SAID. and I did what his dad said and trusted him with everything and this is how he decides to do me. Well. It will take a while to get back to normal. I just need to hit rock bottom again and then I'll be able to work my way back to the top where I was. Like the way he hurt me just sent me in a sprial downward mess....NO GOOD. This is my senior year and I shouldn't feel like this. smh!!! I hate people. That is why I barely have friends because that is where the most drama comes from. The only thing that I learned is that guys, boys however you look at them are getting more like dogs than ever before. Like dont lead someone on, let them get attached, catch feelings and then tell them oh i dont feel the same because people talk about me and you. well people are going to talk regardless of what situation you're in. DUH!

Update

I need to change my display and update everyone on whats been on my mind lately. My boyfriend and I broke up because of rumors....and that's all I can really say without crying.

Let's Play

Just chillin in mr.parker's class. Im pretty bored and im ready for the break that we have next week. Im soooo tired. i dont know why. This weekend was pretty good. I just felt like posting too, so i guess this is it.

I don't know. Something is just heavy on my mind. I havent slept in 27 hours and counting. Tyler told me I need to sleep, but when I get into bed I cant do nothing but think and just stare at the ceiling. It's so weird. I never, well, it's been many months since I had nights like this. It's been almost a year. During the summer 2009 I used to stay up until 7-8 in the morning just thinking and laying in bed. I used to do it a little bit in 2010, but not as bad as the past couple of nights. I've been waking up at 7 in the morning and not being able to go back to sleep for days. It may look like I sleep in class, but I just have my head down. I can still hear everything that's going on. And I dont feel any different. Like I dont feel tired or overwhelmed or anything. It's really weird. I might go to the doctor, but I'm not so sure because if they make me take that sleeping test I will have a problem because I don't like to sleep in the dark and that won't work for me. Like last night I stayed up, started and finished a whole book, and I even woke Tyler up so that he can go to work, which was a 530, I didnt even notice the time until I saw the sun and heard my dog barking. It's so strange. I just got thoughts going and going through my mind, but when it's time to sleep, I just can't.

those are just a few of the pictures that we took. The rest are on FB...if i have time i'll put them on tumblr. =)

Untitled

See my display picture of me and my bestfriend??? Isnt it cute? lol. Omg everyone last night was clownin us at the bbq, until Shequilla got there? Funny name lol. But people were like bestfriends dont kiss each other, they dont do everything for each other, they dont share drinks and all these other comments. It was funny at first but then it got annoying. Therefore upsetting me, but i didnt let it show. Why ruin a good day right? Sandy said we should stop acting and just call it what it is. She didnt know they called it being "bestfriends" in 2011. It was funny. And nobody i stupid they all said something. "Bestfriends dont do this, Bestfriends dont do that". that's all we heard last night. And then Shequilla got there. That made it funnier. She was all anti-social and what not. Not including herself in NOTHING. Which irritated. If you gonna come at least include yourself. But I txtd tyler and what like you ain gonna speak to your guest? He said "barely. I aint want her to come so why would I speak to her" then his ma saw that nobody was talking to her so she was like "tyler you better be nice to her." it was funny. Then we was playin catch and she would only pass the football to him, so i had to jump and steal it lol. But everyone was making those same bestfriend comments again and she started trippin and textin him talking about "oh i thought yall was just friends" and what not. Overall at the end of the day, after all the great/amazing food, all the drama other ppl had, playing cards and games. WE (as in my and tyler) had a great day. =) 

MR.PARKER WE'RE MAKING PROGRESS!!!! =) YAY!